Been awhile..

So, Tara's biological uncle, David, got a hold of me by phone the day after my last post. Dean (Tara's dad) was in Oregon visiting David and their mom Darlene, who has 4 different kinds of cancer). David and I talked for a little bit and he told me Dean would get a hold of me when he got back to his home in California. So 2 days later he called and he we talked for a bit. I just wanted to make sure things would go smoothly for Tara. They have been talking over the phone almost every day since and Dean and I talk at least once a week. Things are going well so far. Will post more later..

Day.. what. 7 now?

So Tara and I got a hold of Dean and have been talk ever since.. thank God. Everything is working out good, which I was so scared it might not. I was afraid his new wife/girlfriend might freak out, which she didn't.. I was afraid all the mistakes I made who Fuck us up which they didn't, I was afraid all the mistakes he made would Fuck it all up, but as it all turns out, we are all okay. My daughter gets to knowher dad, and brothers and sisters, since she's the oldest. I got my healing, because he apologized for breaking my heart. We got this now.. we are all family now!!

2012 it's Already Weird

About a week ago, my daughter Tara and I found her biological father. My daughter is 29. She had never even seen a picture of him. We found him on Facebook. LOL. Anyways, I wrote him and sent him a friends request, and just yesterday he accepted, but he wrote nothing back. I know this is probably a lot for him to absorb so I'm trying to be very patient. He mentioned Tara in his BIO on FB so I know he is interested in having contact with her. Tara has been interested in trying to find her father since she was about 10 years old. This means so much to her. I just want this to go well for her. She NEEDS this. But as for now, it's just a matter of waiting...Come on Dean, don't let her down...

Day 1

I am a 46 year old female, wife, mother of 4, step-mom of 3, and my heart has adopted at least 7 other kids, I have 6 biological grandchildren, a grand step daughter coming in Feb., and grand children of my heart equaling 8. Needless to say, I have a huge capacity to love. These are the names of the children I love.. Tara (my blood daughter), David (my blood son), Hazy (my blood daughter), Logan (my blood son).. Robby ( my step-son), Jonny (my step-son), Sammie (my step-daughter, April (daughter.of my heart), Lea (daughter of my heart), Janis (daughter of my heart), Sam (son of my heart), and Hillarie (daughter of my heart).. I have a great capacity to love children. Give me time and I will post pics and my relation to them... Here we.go people.. Hang.tight..